Fitndelaware

WOW!  I did not realize how busy I had become until someone said “hey what happened to your blog?” I am so ashamed and apologize to those of you that looked forward to my rantings. Needless to say I am back and with so much to share with you!! It’s going to take a few posts to catch up!! First I thank God that I am healthy and well into 2012. I have picked up my Hip Hop Hustle Certification and my Group Fitness Certification from AFAA. I am still stuck at my same weight and recently gained 7lbs due to being home (South Carolina) and eating a week’s worth of southern food. My father in law passed away and I realized that I have so much more to give. His funeral was packed with well over 500 people and some people had to leave. This was on a Tuesday so can you imagine if it was held on the weekend?? He was so loved and well thought of and I find myself asking were it me….would I get that kind of turn out?  Only in the sense that I would want folks to remember my good works.

Anyway, I’m just thankful that while I have health and strength I can reach out to others to help them achieve their goals. So if you are struggling with weight, depressed, just need someone to talk to please reach out to me. I’m not trying to sell you anything I genuinely want to help. Email me at fitnde@gmail.com and I will get back to you right away!! Well that’s the tip of the iceburg. Stay tuned to tomorrow when I will share how it’s been strictly working from home….roll up your sleeves you are in for a ride. Blessings!!

Have you ever wondered if you are giving life all you got? Or are you holding back? If you are holding back why…what has put you in this place? A few years ago this was me…holding back and giving just enough. I was overweight, tired and burnt out. Try as hard as I could I couldn’t get on track. Until my breaking point…I looked into a mirror and hated what I saw, what I had become. I was a person who was content even though I wasn’t happy. I was a mother, a wife and a friend…I gave my all to the people around me but when it came to myself I gave nothing. I made excuses of why I couldn’t work out or go out with friends and I was miserable. I did laundry and made my husband’s appointments. I was everybody’s secretary, maid, motivator and yet I was getting bigger and bigger. My knees hurt and I was out of breath…couldn’t climb stairs without being winded. I gave 200% to my job and bent over backwards for people I didn’t like and then I collapsed. I couldn’t breathe or focus and I was yelling all the time. Aggravated over every little thing.

Then it hit me. While I was giving everybody everything I was giving myself NOTHING! I went to the doctor because I was having chest pains and he said to me (as I was taking a call from one of my kids). You keep this up and you are going to leave your kids here alone and then my phone rang and it was my job. My doctor took the phone out of my hands and said “Mrs Howard you will DIE!” That got my attention. I cried and I said I don’t know where to start over. He said AT THE BEGINNING!! Today when you go home I am prescribing bed rest and then 30 minutes a day you turn off your phone and do anything you want…sleep, eat, exercise, get out and get fresh air but it has to be FOR YOU and no one else. I went home and told my husband and I had it in writing. I also had prescriptions for an antidepressant and folic acid and steroids (I was in the middle of a flare). My husband said okay well why are you standing here…go to bed!

The next day I began exercising and it was hard but I gave it my all.  2 weeks later I was feeling better so I began taking an hour. Then out of the blue I took a vacation for 3 days by myself…it was the best gift I could give myself. My life was saved and still to this day I take an hour to do whatever it is I want to do. I still fight and over extend myself but I’m giving ME all I’ve got. You can do the same…without the break down!! LOL…take time out for yourself – read, exercise, whatever you want but it will make you a better person. It’s done that for me! Blessings!